God has a positive answer!

你說：「我累了。」
神說：「我讓你休息。 」(太11:28-30)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

你 說：「沒有人愛我。」
神 說：「我愛你。」 (約 3:16 & 約 3:34)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)

你說：「我做不下去了。」
神說：「我的恩典夠你支持下去。」
(林後 12:9 & 詩 91:15)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

你說：「我想不通。」
神說：「我引領你前行。」(箴 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

你說：「我做不到。」
神說：「你什麼都做得到 。」(腓 4:13)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

你說：「我不配。」
神說：「你配。」 (林後 9:8)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

你說：「這麼做不值得。」
神說：「做了，你馬上就會覺得值得了。」 (羅 8:28)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)

你說：「我無法原諒自己。」
神說：「我原諒你。」 (約壹 1:9 & 羅 8:1)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

你說：「我是窮苦的。」
神說：「我供應你一切所需。」 ( 腓 4:19)
You say: "I'm poor"
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

你說：「我害怕。」
神說：「我所賜給你的不是膽怯的心。」 (提後 1:7)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

你說：「我常常在擔憂、受挫。」
神說：「放下你的重擔，我為你承擔。」 ( 彼後 5:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

眼看星星落下
窗外一点一点出现阳光
抚摸我的头
你说我很怕
我们都是这样
一面带着伤痕一面飞翔
难过的时候 有我在身旁
我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂
不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良
这一路上有你
我变得坚强
你知道我多傻（其实我也很傻）
在你面前从来不用逞强
听我说说话
让我靠一下
我们都是这样
想要幸福却都跌跌撞撞
可是不要怕 有我在身旁
我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂
无论故事有多长
世界对我太善良
这一路上有你
我变得坚强

你才看见
我早已经学会
就算逆风
也能好好带着祝福不再流泪
勇敢地飞
然后分享那种喜悦

我们都是这样
一面带着伤痕一面飞翔
难过的时候
有你在身旁
我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂
不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良

Boy Boy,
这一路上有你
我变得坚强!

What do i do when i miss you??

take a guess..

teehee..

Girl girl@~

A message to someone at postcode 2840

happy... happy... happy...

thanks for enlighten my day up!

because of your existence, my heart smiles.

once again, you are always on my mind.

it's okay for those inconvenience.

we can always make them once everything has fallen in place.

thank you for the tempting future plans.

our missions, our spring, our future, ...

appreciate your love forever.

13/11/2009
12.44 am
girl girl @~

weiseng.... says: hope things stay the same as our initial promise. welcome the spring.

~Looking forward~

~@我们要一起努力@~

Boy Boy from nowhere far far away:

坚持的都值得坚持吗?
我所相信的就是真的吗?
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗?
而如果都算了不要呢?

或许吧或许我永远都不会遇见他,
或许吧或许我太天真了吧..

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力

属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌吧
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧!
为什么不敢呢不要呢?

是你吧,命中早就注定了的那个你!
是你吧你原来就在这里啊...

属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我的昨天之前的结局
我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们再一起努力
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心
我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情
我们还要努力!
~@ ♥ @~

~ Girl Girl at somewhere down here ~

commitment!

希望中失望,
失望中坚强.
四个月为期,
这是我们的考验, 我们的约定,
一 辈 子 幸 福 的 约 定 !

Dear Lord, have faith in You.
Prof Chris, waiting for your good news.
McSpermy, looking forward to meeting you.

~@ Right here waiting @~

~McOvum~

~looking forward~

McOvum: ‘不怕我们在地球的两端. 世界再大,两颗真心就能互相取暖; 我会耐心地等,随时欢迎你靠岸.’

McSpermy: 简简单单的几个字，却蕴涵了深深的情意，还带有点点的温暖。想告诉站在岸边的那颗心，那远远的，还有另一颗互暖的心期待着靠岸的邂逅。

~@期待@~

dilemma.

Dilemma.
realestate.com.au indeed putting me in dilemma.
To move or not to move?
To drive or not to drive?
Suggestion:
1) move - save time, save energy
2) drive - more convenient, save time.

Should i satisfy with what I have right now.
Still within Adelaide.. 40 minutes away from the city..
It's not too far away at all.
Hold it! Like how you asked him to hold it.
At least 40mins distance is much better than 1500km away!
Yvonne, stop thinking right now.
FOCUS!!!
The future is near, it's so close.
One more month to go, few more months to wait.
The ending is there and the starting is near.
Jia you!!

Looking forward to meeting you and the new start.
Congrats on your good news and thanks for your reassurances!
Great job! Keep it up! ~@~

给你的留言

我很想你.我该怎么办?我该怎么做?
不想告诉你,因为不想你担心.
不想你不顾一切回来,
更不希望你放弃一切.
心情有点复杂.突然乱了.
我们停留在这里好吗?
我该对你那么狠心吗?
我们都期待,抱着希望,
却不想将希望一一毁灭.
感觉到你的兴奋,
我更不该泼冷水,
我该怎么办???
看戏睡觉来麻醉自己,
依然无法将你抛在脑后...
成成啊!!!我迷路了... ='(

Recent update.

I'm back. for a sec. Someone asked if I'm still on my blog.
Well, it depends. Hopefully i could update everyone more frequent.
Felt so contented. I'm happy!

Thanks everyone for the greetings and the lunches, dinners, and dessert times, and not forget the wonderful cakes as well (you know who you are). Special thanks to Veronica and Melody for what you have done. Unlimited appreciations deep in my heart!

Finally get back to Glenelg to have the ice-cream that i always craved for!
Thank you my lovely cousin for the days you spent with me, you make my days so blessed.
Great to know you more through this short period of time, hopefully i could see you more often next time. Am going to miss the time we had our heart talk, sharings, sort of knowledges testing, unforgettable trips, and the time we had meals and tea time together! You brought me into an authentic aussie's life. enjoyed it!!!

Not to forget to thank "someone" for being with me and support me all this while. felt so privileged and had received all your sincerity here. Can't wait for you to come back and will keep the fire burning always! Sorry for disappearing in the dark all of a sudden. Your overaction had touched me and felt how important i am, appreciate that lots! Remember, be confident! no more question marks. He is just a friend. Sorry for the misleading pictures. You are confident in me, aren't you? Looking forward to our meeting. Our promises, our trips and our plans. =)
Sending all my sweetness from here! ^^

Another Sunday! Have a great day ahead! All the best to everyone!

Thanks everyone!

It's a meaningful day for me today.
No idea I wasn't able to sleep well.
So I watched the 2009 Astro Talent Show on youtube.
Also, scratching my head to figure out the problems in the medication management cases.

Early in the morning, I received a missed call from Melody.
She wanted to pray for me for my interview later on.
I was then only started to iron my formal suits for the interview.
And then I continued with the MM cases.
I don't believe that I can't figure out any problems from them!
Till almost time that I have to leave, I found some problems.
And damn it! MM! You caused me unable to catch my train!!!
For the short interview, I have to grab a cab to bring me there!!!
Well, that's alright.
I didn't prepare for the interview at all.
In the cab, I kept looking at the price meter.
It runs so fast! And from there, I was telling myself that I have to do my best because of the price that I paid for!!
When I got there, I lingered around the pharmacy. The pharmacist was busy.
Anyway, the interview went smoothly. It was good.
I was then went back to my previous placement pharmacy to say hi to everyone!
I was so happy that I finally get to see them again.
They were all happy as well! We had a good chat at that moment.

As I was about to leave the pharmacy and back to city, it hailed.
This is my first time being hit by the hail.
Lots of crystal-like tiny little ice cubes dropped onto the ground and melted.
What a wonderful experience I had!
I got to have lunch with my lovely mates that afternoon and the wind blew crazily that day!
What was interesting and surprising was:
I got a call from the pharmacy that I had a one day placement.
The call was delayed for a week and the boss asked me whether I'm alright with it.
And... I got a good news!!!! I got a job!!! Everyone was happy for me and i was so excited as well!
The moment was like.. i don't know what to say cuz I was too happy!!!!

And we went for class again, getting to know that out Nutrition results were out.
i went back and checked for my result. And again, THANK GOD!!! YOU'RE WONDERFUL!
I passed again!!!!
2 good news in a day! woot~
excitement excitement came non stop!
I love the day. I went for OCF gathering, and again we prayed.

I realised that God is really an awesome man! He knows what we want. He answers our prayers.
Have faith in Him! Thank God for everything that You gave me and You planned for me.
Thank you bro and sis in christ who prayed so hard for us! THANK YOU from my sincere heart!

Damn funny! Enjoy~

It's hard to love than to be loved!

你那么爱他，为什么不把他留下?
I don't know... I didn't hold our relationship.
Somehow I regretted to be so cruel.
I stopped the relationship eventhough I'm still in love with you.

我們的愛, 過了就不再回來, 直到現在, 我還默默的等待...
I'm still putting hope on us.
But you said I'm the one who didn't hold you.
Yes, I'm wrong.
You asked me to wait as you don't want to lose me.
Yet I didn't.

Thanks Melody, Jason, Keoying, Boon Ying, Albee, TSK for your supports when I'm down.
爱都走远了..又何必强求回忆的永恒...
伤人最深的不是爱情,而是回忆..
That's true..
I need time to cure myself now.

I'm be fine soon.

1.30am 17/08/2009 -- 4pm 22/08/2009

Everything ends finally.
It's short but it created a meaningful part of my life.
It's sad. It's hurt either.
I know you didn't want it to happen but what can I do?
You are a little master, I'm not.
You are lonely, I'm not.
You got everything branded and materialistic, I'm not.
You are organised, I'm not.
You speak good English, I'm not!

I still learn to love you,
to understand you,
to support you,
to know you more,
but I felt so hard to fit myself into your life.

You shared your life with me,
you had been so honest to me,
yet the feeling of loving you still doesn't seem so right.
I struggled, I missed you all the times,
I cared about you.
I can't stop thinking about you.
Why am I doing this?
I knew it was a mistake since the starting.
Yet still, I tried.
I tried my best, at least.

I knew you don't want to lose me, and me too.
You had always hold me whenever you are with me.
I'm so sorry that I hurt you and I know you too.
I'm sorry that I didn't hold you b'cause I think it's really a mistake for us to get together.
I treasure the time you spent with me and I knew you cherished them too.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for your love, your cares.
It's best for us to part now, yes, it is.
Hoping for a better future.
All the best! Take care, S!

With love,
Yvonne

S & Y at Glenelg (17/08/2009)

*Pretty starry night with rain for just a couple of minutes?
Miracle happens when you believe!*

I just can't help it.
It's a pretty cloudy night with lots of stars in the sky.
We were looking upwards at Glenelg, expecting no rain.
That's the hard one. I would say "yes" only if it rains.
After an hour and a half, I reached my house. I was going to leave him with "good night!".
And he was still waiting, with no smile and disappointed face.
Before I opened the car door, "It still not going to rain," he said.
I smiled at him. He seemed so upset.
He even checked for the weather before I left. It didn't seem going to rain though.
I asked him to wait for me for 5 minutes before we really said Goodbye~
So surprisingly, it rained. IT RAINED FINALLY AT 1.30am!!!!
And it rained for just a couple of minutes and it stopped!!!!
That's amazing!!! I had no choice and I had to say "yes!"
That's about it. It's something that I experienced once in a lifetime?
might be...

Thank you for your patience.
Sorry for making you wait. <3

Tell Me Why

10-year-old Declan Galbraith is telling his feelings about people in the 3rd world!

Wash Your Hands Too!!!

Crazy Intern Pharmacist?

I'm here again.

What did I think of today?
I guess most people have higher expectation to Christians..
and yes, me too!
However, the higher I expect, the more disappointment I get.
I don't like you!
As a christian, I thought you are like this,
but how come you are like that?
Still, full of question marks in my mind.
So many times I experienced.
I give up in you because I really don't understand why are you acting like that.
Okay! Stop everything!
No more expectations on christians!
Everyone is human being,
nobody is of higher grade than the other.

Anyway, thanks a lot to Jong (even though you are so far away), Sabrina, David, Robin, Mark, and etc..
thank you all for helping me up and bring me up when I need you all.
Thanks for the cares too.. Thanks Tau, Mel, Madeline...
Thanks once again.

All the best.

Ta,
Yvonne

?????

Everything doesn't seems quite right now.
Journey to the truth was halted.
It wasn't that easy though.
And I knew the toughness of going through this journey.

The daily bible verse for today:
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

Everything that flash through my mind ends up with BIG "???"!
Is it? Why? How?
Even in the lectures, the fatty man said a man hung died and after 3 days, He just raise up again. And without evidence, people just take it with faith.
Evidence? yea.. where's the evidence?
Everything sounds not too right for me now.
And that is why, I'm giving up.

For me, I really don't know where am I now.
Life is just seems to be so unfair and I don't know why am I taking up this course in the end.
As I said before, if I couldn't take it till the end, please don't blame me.
I'm just trying to fulfil what you all want.
Mxxx said, "Life is like that one, just need to stand up at the point where you fall."
Okay.. I'll just try my best. At least there's no regret after all.

Be strong la!

神啊，救救我吧！

有时候，我是坚强的；
但更多时候，我并非那么坚强。
一次又一次的打击，我终于离开了。
每次在夜里用力地呼喊你的名字，你听见了吗？
每次在迷茫路途中寻找你的带领，你真的存在吗？
为什么?
为什么我一直找不到确实的答案？
为什么一次又一次地，深深的打击我？
爱情培养了三五年，断了也罢了，
虽然内心在痛，泪在流，
但，始终无法代替你我之间的关系。
我。。需要一点空间。
离开你，真的很抱歉，
但，我还是选择了离开。。
盼望我还可以回头。

神啊，救救我吧！
再次呼喊你的名字，你听见了吗？

Alien?!

是否曾经想过，我们也是外星人？
我们口口声声说:“那个外星人好丑哦，外星人是住在其他星球的！”
但,在外星人的眼里，我们也是好丑哦，我们也是住在其他星球的！
为什么我们总是责怪外星人突袭我们的地球？甚至要抓他们？
换个角度来看，我们也不是一样入侵他们的星球吗？

不觉得很神奇吗？
上帝创造人类，也创造了ALIEN。
上帝赐下完美，也赐下不完美。
因为人类在过于享受完美的过程中，
总是忘了追求长进。
每件事情都会有正面与负面，
但从另一个角度观看一样事情，是会有不同的结果的！^^

Say Hello to final year!

Thank God!
After all the efforts, finally His determination allows me to step into my final year.
Well, eventhough there were ups and downs that deeply influenced my studies,
with Him, I finally went through all these smoothly.
Lots of thanks to my AP lecturer who allows me to have another chance,
which helps me in the 4th year studies.
Also, thanks to my parents who keep supporting me during this period of time,
and those friends who were in Adelaide, who were there to help me when i needed them.
Thanks to those who were in Malaysia who gave me support as well.

Recently just started to get myself into the busy life.
Eventhough again I clearly seen the nature of human beings when everyone was stressful,
I hope I can overcome all these smoothly with Him.
Be strong, Yvonne!

WIND BENEATH MY WING - Bette Midler

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that's your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strength.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you're my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
but I've got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you you're my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the wind beneath my wings,
'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings~

故事未完成 (杨培安 刘虹翎)

只要再給我多一點時間
希望能給你全部的世界
我無法改變 錯過的一切
只能讓思念如夢般分手
只要再給我多一點時間
想為你完成所有的誓言
太多的夢想 太多的諾言
等待每夜慢慢實現
讓所有圓束在你我隔中間
讓我為你繼續未完的情結
就算妳在天邊 就算你在地面
兩顆真心像風箏連着一條線
願所有快樂在你之間蔓延
讓我感覺妳最幸福的笑臉
雖然妳在天邊 雖然你在地面
我們的愛要相約到永遠

Part of my study life

I'm so tired now.. still blogging with my almost-closed eyes..
Working in a restaurant is an easy task though.
Somehow I realized that I'm not a multi-tasking person.
And I found that I'm actually very lucky enough.
The first training that I had at J.O.Y Pharmacy in Kuching, was awesome!
It was not requested by my own but by other.
For a girl who never worked before, I felt that I'm so lucky to met such a good pharmacist as my boss.
And therefore, the first job that I had, wasn't stressful or pressurized by the boss.
The best thing was, he taught me loads of knowledge besides medications such as pharmacy management, religious thoughts, studying skills, IQs, right brain functions, etc..
Eventhough it was an unpaid training, yet I really learnt a lot which make my personal thoughts more positive as well.

Other than that, the first paid work, which is my first job as well, wasn't get by my own as well.
Through the recommendations of my housemate, I got this pretty good job as a waitress in a food court.
Again, I met a good boss, who treats all of us good enough.
The colleagues there were also very friendly and we used to share our experiences of living in Adelaide. Some of the colleagues were recommended to the boss by my neighbours as well..
Different colleagues from different countries, we see them as one.
The thing that I like most from this job wasn't the pay, but it helps me to practise my english speaking!!!!
Seriously I love the interactions with the locals and visitors from other countries as well, and the communications with them.
Eventhough I'm not a good multi-tasking person, I think i can still handle a small stall well.
Greeting the customers, listen to them, filling the dishes, collecting money, packing the take-away boxes, interact with the chef, counting the amount, attending the awaiting customers, fill up the drinks in the fridge..
At least I'm still good in these..

Well, I just had a trial at a Thai Cafe.
It was a small cafe as well, but.. it was so busy!!!
I need to memorise their 50++ dishes with the prices and all the ingredients in it.. and I did it!
However, I can memorise all of them doesn't mean that I can practise them!
After observing for 2 hours, I learnt a lot as well..
The manager said that my wine pouring skill was so un-professional!!
Alright, thanks for that. At least now I know how does the professional way of pouring wine would be.
And thanks for the trial, eventhough I quitted at the end.
I had learnt how to clean up a table, how to set up a table, how to open a wine bottle, and the basic ways of attending the customers.. and the best thing was, I learnt how to carry so many plates at a time on one arm!!!
It's not easy though.
After wine or drinks, wait for their orders for entree and main courses,
and some of their orders are not served all at once, additional work to let the chefs know about them, and desserts which are served at different time as well..
running in and out in a small cafe with so small space for walking, halfway attending the customers, halfway clearing up the tables, taking orders at the same time, bringing drinks to serve them as well..
nah.. I give up finally..

Back to my study..
Stop making my life so hard..
Anyway, these allow me to know that I still have so much things to learn.
Without this experience, I guess I wouldn't know how difficult is a job as a waitress in a restaurant.

Lastly,
thank God for all these happening in part of my study life.
No experiences, no gain.
:p